dr. mack examined me, and there was no bleeding. my cervix was closed. i don't get it. i hate these things that give me false hopes. i'm going back at 3:15 for an ultrasound and, hopefully, the results of my bloodwork. we'll still planning on the d&c for tomorrow (unless something miraculous happens, which would be fine with me).

in a month or two, he wants to do a hysteroscopy to try to figure out if anything's wrong with the lining (since i have a history of abnormal bleeding). he said i can start trying again after three cycles.

he promised that i'd have children.